5 years down the line

5 years from now

...what will happen to me?

where will I be?

I just simply don't know!

Mayb I'll b studing in some clg.. mayb in kolkata mayb In india ( I"m not going outta india at any cost) .. I donno

Mayb I'll b pursuing ma career... but what?.. I donno..

Mayb Ill be having a bunch of frnds , mayb a bf even.. but who ? i donno..

The firends I ahve now.. will they remain in college..?.. mayb .. maynot b...

Mayb Ill b living my life... but will it b they way I wnat it too?.. I really donno...

The road has ever gone and gone

down form the door where it begun

Now far ahead the road has gone

And I must follow if I can

Pursuing it with eager feet

until it meets some larger way

where many paths and errand meet

And whither then? I cannot say

~~~ J. R. R. tolkein~

swapno --- ek chotto golpo!

Rastar pashe darie cheleta
shunte pacche koto hashi, koto thatta, koto kotha
hathe tar bhikkhar jhulita
porone tar pant, r chera shirt ta.
chokher konai ek fota jol
karur ki shomoy nei tar dike ek bar fire chawar
na, nei, karon?.. karon she ratsar pashe khudro ek bhikari
prithibita jar kach theke kere nieche shob anondo
jibon take bhadhyo korecheee ----
tai tar harabar kichui nei, kicchu naa...
Tobe, ekdin sheo swapno dekhechilo, hain dekhechilo she..
boro howar swapno...koto iccha joma kore rekeche moner konai..
shegulo bujhi jomai hoe roilo!

garigulo rastay hush kroe chole jai,
aha omon ekta gari jodi tar hoto...bhabe r pran ta kede othe tar
koto kihcui na korte parto..
shei garite kroe she chole jeto shob naam na jana onchole, porir deshe
tarpor... tarpor she shekhane ghurto, onek bondhu korto..
ice cream kheto, football khelto.. r shob kichu korto..
jaa oi boroloker chele meyera kore... shob... shob kichu
tar ekbar onek fuchka khawar shokh hoechilo...
ekta na -duto na.. oenk gulo fuchka..
shei shokh tar ajjo meteni...

hotath tar shamne lal alo, onek lal alo
hat te hat te kokhon je she rastar majhkhane chole esheche ..ter o paini..
alota puro tar gaer opor chole ashee...aawaz ta
kromosho dure chole jacheee...
dinta ondhoakr hoe jacche, kintu ekhon to shobe dupur...
chole jacche she , tar swapner jogote...
ebar jabei, jabei she.. ekai jabe....
chae na she ei prithibi, chae na ei jibon
jekhane she kebol peyeche odohelaaa...
kedechilo she, khoob kedechilo ekdin...
byartho hoechilo bole..koi, keu to asheni...
kintu ajj, ajj she ek klanto pothik, khub klanto..
swapnoi take diechee anondo..
tai bhrukhyep na kore swapnokei korlo she shongi..
tobe, keu ki take mone rakhbe ei prithibite?..
nah, hoyto na...
karon..?... karon she chilo rastar pasher khuddroo ek bhikari.

~ i was inspired by an incident so i wrote it down...~

THE NEGLECTED

The teardrop of the sky fell upon the cradle of pain ;
Dreanching my eyes, filling with agony
Seeking for love has made me insane,
The music has lost it's symphony!

And i cry in the night, just try to hold on.
No one can hear I'm all alone.
All I was want is someone to care ;
That I even exist, in this filthy world of affairs.

But now its time for me to go where I belong
So, I'm writing this last song.
Calling me are my fate and destiny;
The silence of grave is waiting for me.

~~ LEt it go~~~

Weird

enrique has never been in my favourite list. But today i was listening to this track called " little girl" by iglesias and you know i was kindda blown away... I mean it just stirred mee.. the tune and the lyric.. both... !

My first hindi shayeri OK!! hehe

Ajj bhi tere liye baethi hu iss raho meein
Ajj bhi tere liye asu ate hain meri nigaho mein
Ajj bhi tadapti hu tujhe pane ke liye meri baho mein
Ajj bhi, Ajj bhi, teri yadein basein hain meri aaho mein

~~~~~ Trish ~~~~~

Scream

Hey, you , you and you... listen to me... because you have to! I don't want any mroe ppeople to coem to me and say I'm a freak... I know it already...
I'm screaming and I'm dreaming..... and I wnat you to shut up for ocne in your life and actually listen to me.... I have got something to say... why is no one listening to me?... I'm standing in this crowd but there is no one aroudn to hold my hand,... the dusky breeze blows by... it sweeps of all the happiness out of me... I am such an optimistic person... but ppl do change right?... I don't wanna change... changes.. very common thing... I donno what I'm typign even... is there any end to this agony.. its just stupidity and nothign else.. BUT why?

Scream